М.Лохвицкая " В моем незнаньи" / Mirra Lohvizkaya "There is so much faith ..."

Images; Mila Gee
Music: Илья-Муртазин "Прелюдия-фа-минор" /Ilya Murtazin
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"There is so much faith in my 'not knowing”;
a deep faith in the spring's impending bloom.
My hopes, my chimeras, keep on growing
much brighter with the deepening of gloom.

There’s much suffering inside my silence,
with hidden tears and my tormented pride.
Sleepless nights and partings with no solace,
and dreams that have gone up in smoke and died.

There is so much joy inside my madness;
there’s greedy rapture and a mighty force.
My heart still fears the impassive calmness
as of belonging to a frigid corpse.

Yet my “not knowing”: my shield, protection,
From fear of life, death—all I can think of,
Inside my silence is my vocation,
Inside my very madness is my love. "
Trans. Mila Gee

Видео М.Лохвицкая " В моем незнаньи" / Mirra Lohvizkaya "There is so much faith ..." канала Mila Gee Reads Poetry