No one prepares you for this side of motherhood during cancer treatment💛🎗️

Today is a hard day.

I think summer will always feel a little heavy for me now. Last summer, I watched (through social media) everyone doing normal, fun summer things while our world had completely fallen apart after Macon’s cancer diagnosis. And here we are again. Another summer with childhood cancer..❤️‍🩹

We are right in the middle of one of the hardest parts of treatment again. High dose steroids. No sleep. Big emotions. Reactions to the medications. Macon has been clawing at his skin because the steroids are making him itch so badly again, and while Benadryl helps, it’s still heartbreaking to watch. He didn’t sleep well last night, which means none of us really slept.

My birthday is Monday and honestly, I want nothing to do with it this year. I’m just sad.

And I know some people get uncomfortable when parents of sick children say things like that out loud, but this is the reality of childhood cancer. I don’t want pity. I don’t need anyone to “fix” anything. I just need people to understand how deeply this affects every part of your life.

Even when treatment eventually ends, this experience never leaves you. The fear doesn’t. The exhaustion doesn’t. The grief doesn’t. Your entire nervous system changes. Your family changes. Life changes.

People see the hospital stays and chemo, but they don’t always see the emotional survival happening behind closed doors. The sleep deprivation. The anxiety. The isolation. Watching your child suffer and knowing you can’t take it away from them.

I hate cancer so much.

And today, I’m allowing myself to admit that surviving this feels incredibly hard.💔

Видео No one prepares you for this side of motherhood during cancer treatment💛🎗️ канала Madeline Staples