"so f*cked up" by Deathe GreapeR

Lyrics:

Grown n done moved out,
The hood is where I stay now.
I still live in poverty.
But I have hope for society.
I work hard for my money.
Even though it is still not enough to support me, my dog, and my future family.

I been waiting for a notice from social security to see if my mental illness counts as a disability.
My mood swings are debilitating - have me yearning to be impulsive, indecisive, and irresponsible, which could lead to infidelity.
But I’m all about the loyalty.

My dad done taught me right from wrong, left from right, good from evil. So I know what’s bad ain’t right.
I stay feedin the good wolf cause that’s what I want by my side.
I try and tell myself I have a beautiful life.
I’m meant to go far in life.
Not destined to spoil but destined to be known.
I have potential, it’s potent.
I already know.

When I’m manic I panic because all my synapses are collapsing together.
They make me paranoid and perceptive to the reality that is ever-present.
It’s ever-changing which will be long-lasting.
In due time I will be the greatest ever known.

I’m bipolar.
I get sad N sadistic.
My emotions control me so nobody knows the real me. Not even me, myself, and I.
The best part about me is my borderline personality.
Flip it on like a light switch then I become a real bitch.
You don’t wanna see that side of me.
That’s deep inside of me.
The realest side of me.
I’m actually a cry baby.

Don’t abandon me nor neglect me.
Grew up thinking that everyone surrounding me was out to get me.
Purposely hurt me or leave me.
They left me and hurt me.
But I’m sure glad they did.

Those who left and abandoned me,
Don’t deserve to step on my property
Or get a share of my prosperity.
I will get myself out of this poverty if it takes my own sanity due to my loyalty of this strenuous game.

This game of life is destined to lead me to fame.
I don’t necessarily want the fame or the fortune.
But God gave me a golden token and said stop token, you’re smoking your life away.
He said be patient cuz patience is key.
He literally gave me the key.
Low key
Aka high key
I can’t own an AK but maybe someday I can afford to hire whoever I desire to guard me from these demons knocking at my door.
My possessions are getting repossessed then cuz my bills got sent to collections
Ya’ll wonder why I’m obsessive about my credit score.
Don’t knock at my door.
If I don’t know your name you can’t enter the game. I’m sorry but you ain’t worthy cuz you did me dirty since I wouldn’t be a fucking whore.
Soon I’ll be pressing a button from my hill top mansion scoping who goes thru the gate.
Fuck no I didn’t write this with hate.
Knowledge power there’s no need to be sour ya’ll just don’t have the ladder that goes straight.
Get off my gate.

I have attitude that can blow things out of proportion
The tone of my voice can elevate things to distortion
not even sure what the cause is
But I’m getting tired of being taken advantage of
I don’t want to reiterate anymore of my knowledge cuz
Sometimes I do things I can’t control and that hurts me in my fucking soul
I can compare the feeling to a piece of coal
That’s why I go to therapy since I’m in a fucking hole
I know that one day it will all get better
So please bear with me
My destiny has already been decided for me
I’m skipping rungs on the ladder
Still waiting for the day it will all get better
I apologize if I’ve hurt you I’m so sorry because I know better
I’m so fucked up but one day I will get better.

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