Goodbye Cash || 2010-2024

I've had a few days to try and process what's happened. I've shed a healthy amount of tears. It's only been 2 days and you've left home. Arrangements for your cremation have been made. Within the week you'll come home in a box. I've seen the pictures of your lifeless body. The last I will ever see of you. You really are gone, and I don’t think I’ve fully accepted that yet. I'm told you went peacefully in your sleep. Curled up in bed with your friends to help you pass. Never showing signs you might be circling the drain. I don't think you ever were. Whatever took you after 14 years did so quickly and spared you much suffering. I'm glad you lived life well until the very last hour. I'm glad you never had a slow decline. Your joints became stiff. Your eyes became cloudy. But your soul remained full. I can only pray that I will age as gracefully as you did. Just days before you went, you could be heard over the phone still full of life. You went on car rides. You roamed through fields and tree lines. You had bacon and scraps of sandwiches before bed not knowing it would be your fitting last meal. I could hear you howling and barking over our phone calls. Thousands of miles apart. I was going to hug you again only a few weeks from now. Now I will have to wait much longer. I feel guilty I wasn't home to be with you during what I knew were your twilight years, but never thought were your final days. I am so sorry I wasn't there Cash. I AM SO SORRY! Throughout the final years of my childhood, I received the same love everyday coming home from school. After I joined the Navy, you never forgot me. Never thought of me less. You didn't know where I had gone or where I had been. It never mattered to you. You were waiting for me every time. All that mattered is that we were together again if even only for a few weeks at a time. Thank you so much for still loving me for over 6 years when I came home every time as if I had never left. I am still very much in denial. I've been gathering all the photos and videos I can find. Some recent with your white muzzle and cloudy eyes. Others what seem like lifetimes ago with jet black fur and a fuller frame. Your heart, your spirit, and your love remained unchanged over 14 years. You were always and still are the same amazing dog we were never supposed to keep over a decade ago. I was still a child when our paths crossed for the first time. Our bond is stronger than I've had with anyone. I can't even find the right word for what you are Cash. Because you are so much more than my pet.You are my best friend. To me, you still feel very much alive. You haven't gone anywhere, and I know you're going to keep waiting for me until I draw my last breath and join you. Thank you for making my life so full. Thank you for being my buddy. I love you so much Cash. I love you so much.

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