Did I ruin my relationship with my niece? #reddit #redditstory

I’m 23F and during my last manic episode I decided to go complete no contact with my family and call them abusive over text (they’re not abusive). One of my nieces was 12 at the time and as I was leaving my house I called her and gave her this long speech about how I’d always be there for her and I also told her that her dad was abusive.

Now, the episode is over and has been over for a while now (she’s 13) and I’m stable as well as back in touch with my family. However, things are awkward with my niece to say the least. A few months ago, I did speak to her and I apologized for what I said and explained that I was in an episode and extremely out of control. It felt like a good talk and we hugged at the end of it. But ever since, things have been different. Whenever I see her at family gatherings, all we exchange is a quick greeting and then it kind of feels like she avoids me. I realize it might just be that she doesn’t know how to handle the situation now, but with me already having low self esteem and confidence around my family it’s just another thing that fills me with shame. I don’t want us to grow up like this, I want us to have a good relationship and the narrative in my mind is that, to her, I’ve become the reckless and ill aunt she can’t trust. In fact, that’s how I am around my entire family - doubtful that they see me as anything other than ill.

What do y’all think are the chances of her and I getting close again?

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