She's S.P.E.C.I.A.L.!

Let us start with a short note in czech: Omlouváme se, že tento příspěvek není česky. Pokud je něco zároveň obsáhlé a zároveň hodnotné pro všechny (jak v nejlepší víře doufáme), volíme angličtinu a spoléháme na auto překlad, no snad to bude dávat smysl...

If this is the first entry from us you've encountered, it might seem messy. Dig deeper for some context. For example, there's the Why Me video, the philosophy trilogy, or you can just jump right in!

Luke: "Everyone around is happy and proud. And I feel that too, along with guilt and responsibility. Responsibility is understandable, why guilt tho you may ask... Because I live a conscious life, I teach myself to be aware of me and the consequences of my actions in the first place, then of all beings and things...There are so many more people than Earth can bear (and the lifestyle of so many is destructive and celebrated as such - I was like that too, I went through a change and that's my message, everyone can change)... So, I felt guilty, selfish, driven by natural need, starting a family, in a world without a moral compass, with so much tension...
Eventually, I found my peace with it. Let me elaborate.

Maybe it's too personal but I'd like to share, for somebody able to learn from it maybe. Objectively, we didn't go through anything "drastic", many people have been through worse. Many people don't wanna share which is understandable, I don't really want to either. Someone said "Foul times demand heroic deeds." That's so stupid, I'm no hero. Sonia could be the hero, definitely.

Well, we went through two abortions - my DNA is "damaged" (the chronic pain, the "holes" in my skin) and obviously it doesn't end with me. My unborn has little chance to make it past the first trimester, as it's been found out... I wonder what were my odds to make it... Some of you'd like to talk about radioactivity now, please be patient, another time...
Doesn't it feel like a message tho? Like Echo of Destiny or Will of the Universe? ("Just die already.") Well, I don't say there is no such thing, although this was just an echo of my brain, surrendering, always looking for the easy way... I've been learning to silence it to feel the real possibilities, my options, with my heart and I know this much... Focus on probability, and you'll never make a move. Focus on your inner light and you'll see the path. (Speaking of "seeing", the right word is "to feel" because one doesn't need eyes in order to be able to...yeah, see. Told ya. Dualities. I'm so sorry, back to the story.)
There was an obstacle on my path. The guilt. So I made an oath. To teach my kid about unconditional love, truthfulness, humbleness, dedication, compassion, tolerance (I met a guy who said "Tolerance, that's exactly the problem, I need to take more and more of the shit"... What a world, whaat a world - The Noose by TechN9ne and Mayday - you must know that song) and also about pain and trauma and discipline and diet and everything I know... Playfully, patiently teaching and taking care, day by day.

And I keep thinking, there are many people out there, yes. Now let's see, how many kids have both parents to raise them? How many functional families do actually exist? How many people believe in kindness? How many people speak, laugh, and cry freely? A little more than a few it seems.

Anyway, one thing led to another and eventually we were sent to the fertility clinic, where the newage magical science happens... They were able to "pick some healthy examples". We literally had to buy our baby.
I mean the insurance company (the government one, not even the extra paid private one) was okay with supporting us. This procedure costs a fortune we don't have. So they helped us a lot and we're grateful.
That's how it works in Czechia, they mostly care for their people... Now let's think about the genetical upgrades for a second. It's being brought to a world without a solid moral compass (people need a reason why it is "bad" to seek revenge for instance). That's just one thing that is bothering me... We push everything around us, but not ourselves...

... Our daughter has been born. Both my girls are safe and healthy, I feel blessed... The name is Victoria (Viktorka as we say, or Krevetka, which stands for shrimp, because she is pink and squishy). She did not scream when she was brought to the light, I had her in my arms like instantly and she was just looking deeply and thoughtfully into my eyes as I was talking to her. I'm sure she knew the voice from "before".
We're grateful to the parents of both of us, for doing such a great job raising me and Sonia and for their eternal love and support. We're grateful to the doctors for all the help and empathy."

(Remember the movie Demolition Man with S. Stallone? Of course you do. Well, our daughter is one of the people who can legitimately say "Someone put me back in the fridge." 🤣)
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