Sorry. Desc

I feel down, lately and I’m sorry that I post so much videos about it. My grandad has died recently and I don’t know how to process it..
None of my close family members have ever died in the time I have lived. I cry every single night and I don’t know how to control my emotions.
I’m an early bloomer ,so I started puberty at 8 so my hormones are all over the place, sorry if you don’t like me venting I will take this down if u want. The only things that’s keeping me from depression are, my fans, friends, and- nothing else. I have to wake up at 6:30 in the morning after sleeping for 2 hours, I hardly get any sleep and I just can’t cope.
To quin, this video was from something that happened before we dated :) sorry if u thought I was cheating!
Crying ur self to sleep every night is not a great look, I hate being judged, maybe it’s my worst fear, I still call my mom mommy because I have never grew out of it, I still sleep with teddies\stuffies, I just wish I could be a fury, someone I simp for hates furies, I can’t do anything I want because I’m scared to be judged *cough* except for celebrate pride *cough* anyways, the point is, I’ve been running my whole life, from other peoples opinions on ME. I hate having a dirty face, because I feel like people will laugh at me, I hate the loud noise because it makes me dizzy, I hate my sneeze, my laugh, the way my body is shaped, my ears. I been bullied my whole life, not physically though, just mentally. I feel like everytime someone whispers, they ARE TALKING ABOUT ME, I hate when I come back from the toilet in school and I enter the class and everyone is staring at me, every persons eyes are on ME.
again, I’m so sorry for vent, good bye bestie x

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