Start of October 🍂

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Hello friends, I hope you enjoy this short n sweet film. this was filmed a little while ago in late september and start of october. It is a good time of the year and I enjoyed a lot of cosy moments while having a productive time.

By the time I am posting this, tomorrow will mark the one year anniversary of the first time I published a video on youtube! I am very excited and proud because I do put a lot of work and passion in my videos. All the messages I get about my videos here and in other social media have been really amazing and sweet, so I thank all the viewers for watching and bein here.

I will mention it in the video with the footage from 15th october (tomorrow in real time) which in video form I will only upload 2 weeks from now - somehow my editing schedule turned to be that way, it was not planned - BUT I wanted to get it off my chest now for those who do read the caption.

I really love making videos, it's not for anything else but that feeling of having a video started from scratch, made in my head, from my heart and then sent to you. They are meaningful to me and re-watching the videos back weeks, months later makes me really really happy. reliving good moments that were captured forever but also knowing I went through bad moments and still did okay. That it turned out okay even if in the moment it didn't feel like it would!

I also love sharing them with you.

There is SO much of my life that I don't film, that I don't post, that will remain private, all that I share here in video format is a way for me to calm my mind, my fears, to reassure myself when I need it the most that life is beautiful too, that it has very good moments, that is full of substance. These videos show a lot of who I am and what my life looks like but I am not calm or happy all the time, I struggle and am in pain. And it's okay.

It has also been a challenge for me to not be afraid to stand on my own two feet. To not be afraid of the way I look or of the way my voice sounds. In this past year I grew so much, I can't even begin to put it into words. I really went through a huge transformation mentally.

I still have a lot more to grow.

Have an amazing rest of the day, thank you so much for watching. See you in a few days.

P.S: yesterday a tropical HURRICANE landed in Lisbon for a few hours and there was some strong winds and rain. here in Portugal we never get any of that weather so it was definitely my first experience with hurricanes, stayed safe at home.

With love, yours,

maria
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♡ my Goodreads
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MUSIC 🌻
sharing an umbrella by hentaidesu
That Kid in Fourth Grade Who Really Liked the Denver Broncos by Chris Zabriskie is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution license (https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/4.0/)
Source: http://chriszabriskie.com/uvp/
Artist: http://chriszabriskie.com/

Видео Start of October 🍂 канала Maria Silva