The Sounds of My Childhood

I am currently revisiting my homeland in the Swiss Alps, after fifteen years of absence. It's a very surreal experience: I feel both like a total tourist and a hardcore local. Today, as I went on one of my many hikes and wanted to take some pictures, I realized that I really should make a video instead, as places are so much more than just sights. It's crazy how much the sounds here trigger my memory. They bring me back to the summers of my childhood, and reconnect me with the little girl I used to be, the person I want to be like again. I guess sometimes we're not aware how much we’ve lost ourselves until we find ourselves again. Mine is the story of many people who go out into the world, only to feel a strong pull to reconnect to their roots at a later point. I used to resent this place, I felt imprisoned by the tall mountains, and struggled with the lack of anonymity. Now the enclosure of the mountains gives me the comfort I was hoping to find, and the familiarity of everything helps me come home to myself. I really wasn't aware how special a place it was. Now I’m amazed by its beauty, and deeply grateful to have grown up in this environment. It grounds you, it shapes you, it remains deep inside your bones, no matter how far away you go. It's a good place to be from. We are strong people -- grounded, resilient, independent. Of the earth. The past year was the cherry on top of a decade of incredible difficulty, and I was in serious need of some grounding. I knew I would find it here. I arrived here with a suitcase full of sadness, disappointments and disillusions, and frankly not much else. As I'm healing from past pain and move forward into a very uncertain future, I try to be grateful for the present moment, and trust that I am only hurting because I’m growing. As I soak my bare feet in the creeks I used to play in as a little girl, I have reason to believe that I will not only find her, but bring her back to life. Or so I hope.

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